My Mind vs My Heart (Part 3)

“I put my adventure shoes on, I was going to discover me.”

Now, that I was focusing on improving my life, I was slowly starting to put things in order. I was having more time for myself. I let all the people who didn’t serve me well out of my life. In this silence and loneliness, I was going to rest my head. I was taking this time for a long recovery because I was very broken.

In this recovery time of mine, I was meditating often. I started reading many books. I was reading two books in one week. I read many great authors From Eckhart Tolle to Robin Sharma, Gabrielle Bernstein to Dr.Wayne. All of these books helped me to see the beauty of our journeys. I could feel the harmonic motion now.

Starting this recovery was a wise decision that I’ve made for myself. During this calm time, I got to know myself a little better. Discovery to my soul unrevealed many colors of me. Now, I was understanding my qualities and how much I can achieve if I put my mind into it.

This discovery has led me to my true purpose. I’ve realized that I want to create for humanity. I want my job to allow me to do remarkable things for humanity. I dream of a job where I am joyful and creating for people. Because,I also want to take care of my spirit while I am doing my job and providing for my family. My body is going to die one day but my spirit won’t. I choose to heal my spirit through this body I was given. My body gives me life, life gives experience to my spirit. Therefore, I am grateful for my life. I am ready to find my heaven on earth.

I get it. Some days, they are not as bright, as others. Some days, fear falls into our hearts like fire. My mother describes that feeling as three cows sitting right on her chest. I still have those fear moments here and there but I don’t have it for every single thing now. I used to. However, even in those days, I learned to jump out of the bed. Because getting up from the bed was getting me closer to my dreams.

This spirit of mine, turned out to be an explorer. She turned out to be smart, hard-worker, and believer. I was hiding all my precious feelings inside me, to be normal, to be accepted. I don’t even remember the name of the person who I was trying to gain acceptance from.
Then why did I hide the real me?

Because I was scared to be a “loser”. I wanted to have it all. I wanted to be accepted and be normal. I was ok to live for others authorization. I held my spirit hostage in my body. If I didn’t surrender and accept myself in the first place, how could I let me out?

Now , I focus mostly on being a good person to myself and others. I am in comfort knowing that the rest will reveal to me with ease.

There is a magic in wanting to be a good person.

Open your heart and let the miracles flow.

The End
Millennial Hippie

Un-Falling for You

It’s lovely to have a company. You come home and you have someone to eat dinner with or to talk with. The comfort it presents is priceless, especially if you are feeling lonely.

A partner is very nice to have no lies but is your partner the best one for you? Are you feeling yourself with this person? That’s the part where you should be honest with yourself.
It is important to choose your life partner wisely.


Because, you lie with dogs, you rise with fleas.

Who you choose as your partner is important because this person is going to be a parent to your children. Because, this person will wake up right next to you every day for the rest of your life. You will attend many events together from the fun ones to vulnerable ones. You will also go through many challenges together. It is a whole journey called “life” you are choosing to take with this person.

In my dating life, I constantly come along with men who comes off as a very confident, joyful person at first.It makes me want to ask God, what have I done to deserve this guy. I hit the clouds. While after, when things starts getting more exclusive, I see these guys get too comfortable with me, and when that comfort hits, the growing stops. If I want to grow, how can I be in constant contact with someone who is not open to grow.

Well, I didn’t understand it before.I was acting as finding love was the biggest achievement in my destiny, I threw away my dreams each time and got into cruise mode.


We were thought to get into the “cruise” mode with our partners. At least that’s what it was like growing up in Turkey. We have thought everything had a time limit. You are supposed to graduate at a certain age, be married by a certain age, or otherwise, people are going to think you are the “problem” one. It was already planned for most of us.

Man and woman lose their powerful, pure energy in relationships to reach society’s standards. The relationships they are practicing to be accepted by society. True love requires harmony. True love flows. In your relationship with your true love, you grow together. You don’t get into argument over small things. You don’t yell your problems to your partner. You simply accept your person for who she/he is.

What I am trying to say is, you are important so is your dreams. Don’t let someone not qualified for you, ever take that away from you. I did and it didn’t serve me any good. Love yourself. Believe in yourself. You are beautiful just the way you were created. Don’t get under the pressure of having a partner. If your partner is taking your energy, it is not good for you. If they are not serving you well, they have to go. So you can shift your energy back to yourself.

All my dating stories has thought me that I am powerful, I am free, I am joy. No one can take that away from me.I will never betray myself again to find love.I take care of my heart now, therefore I vibe higher. When I vibe higher, I get one step closer to my soulmate.

Stay with love, hope and joy.

Millennial Hippie

The New Trend Ecstasy: Meditation

Dear Meditation, Thank you for helping me to stay sane and to see the brighter side each day.

It was a very hot summer day outside. Bored from the party Blair and Luna were chatting by the pool;

B:If I could only talk enough about the importance of meditation, then I would.

L: What does meditation mean Blair?

B: Oh, Meditation is a practice where you use different techniques to calm your mind and to welcome awareness to your body and to your mind.It is the time that you take for your self each day from the world around you and expectations from you.

L:Wow, that sounds very refreshing, but no, thanks! I prefer to refresh with a glass of moscato hun! Sitting in silence even for one minute is very hard.

B:I feel you, it is hard. When there are racing thoughts in your head about your problems, it is hard to sit still in silence. The anxiety, and the stress your problems are causing you, I get it. When there is a lot of anxiety and stress build up in your life, you start seeing events from fear based perspective.This perspective takes the joy away from life.When joy is not your priority, you start loosing your connection with your heart.The weakening of the connection you have with yourself causes you to lose hope and believe towards yourself.Which is really easy to do so these days, because of the crazy expectations the society have on us.

L:Sometimes I do feel overwhelmed with my life. I feel like I can’t take it anymore. I just want to escape.

B:That’s exactly where meditation comes handy because meditating daily can help you to clear your precious mind, and can help you to make more clear decisions through out the day. Better decisions, better you. No joke homie. The moment you want to connect with your spirit, the moment you show your middle finger to suffering and open your heart to freedom. God is within you, only if you want to feel it in your heart.The spirit you have buried because of the the expectations from you, is still alive in that grave. I promise you it is. It is still as beautiful and as alive as the day it was buried.

My entire student life, I’ve struggled with extreme stress and anxiety. In college it became worse because my responsibilities shifted incredibly. In 2019 spring semester, my GPA was 2.0 in engineering school. That 2019 summer, I decided it was time to show up for myself instead of others. I’ve started meditation. At first, It was too hard to even close my eyes for 30 seconds and sit still but I kept going.

L:What happened when you kept going?

Well, you say magic, I say heaven on earth. Meditation thought me sometimes slow is the smoothest for you. Taking a step back and focusing on the inner you, can help you to dig into yourself, where you will find a lot of treasures. Here is the list of some of the treasures I’ve found through meditation:

Myself, I got to know myself better. It is easier to spot things that are good or bad for you when you are in mental clarity with yourself.

It thought me gratitude by making me understand how important is a single breath of mine because without it my body wouldn’t be alive.

Beside many things, meditation has taught me PATIENCE. As a libra, I can say 99% why things were failing apart in my life was, because of my low patience. Being patient was something I had to work on. After 3-4 months after meditation, I started doing way better in school. A year later my G.P.A was now 3.0. Learning more about patience, I’ve learned to control my power because without control, your power is danger.

Thanks to meditation, I can take life one day at a time now. If someone told me I could change my life by sitting in silence frequently, I would have laughed to hard two years ago, now I wonder what I’ve done without meditation all these years.

L: It seems like meditation has taught you a lot of valuable lessons in life. I want to be more involved with meditation too, I feel like with all the problems I have with my job and my boyfriend, I could use some guidance now. Where do you like to meditate?

B: I like to meditate pretty much anywhere but my favorite spot is my meditation corner at home. I actually have a picture of it, let me show it to you.

(Blair pulls her phone out.)

This the corner I’ve created for me time in my home.
L: Blair, this looks absolutely fab! This is a great idea, having a corner for me time sounds nice. Thank you for brightening my world about this Blair, it means a lot. I am ready to work on my problems.
B: My pleasure my dear, I hope you work out your issues soon. It was so nice to chat with you but I need to leave now. See you soon.

The End

Millennial Hippie

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My Mind vs My Heart (Part 2)

The only way to start solving a problem is being aware of the problem.

Two years after losing myself in a relationship again, I was finally waking up.

Slowly opening my eyes back to my reality…

It was painful at first. I didn’t want to face my reality,I just wanted to stay in my safety blankets.My safety blankets were giving me a lot of comfort. It ‘s like your alarm is going off but you don’t have any courage the leave your warm bed. I was right there my friend. But what if I stayed any longer? That option wasn’t even on the table. I was ready to face my fears. It was time to clear all of that fear juice has spilled to my heart, because that juice was poisonous for my precious heart.

When I started evaluating what has caused much fear in my heart, I questioned my childhood a lot, and one thing I could think off is how frequently I’ve lied to my peers.

At 13-14 years old, I found about lying. I became hooked to lying very quickly and didn’t quit for a long time.Lying was such an easy tool for me to ignore facing my peers and myself. I did that very frequently until about 21 years old. When It was the time to clean the my blocks, I wanted to teach myself how to stand in my own truth because of how much I desired the truth. I wanted to start practicing honesty more and more each day. I wanted to be honest to myself in every area of my life.

Because being honest to my self was the best gift I could give to myself at that moment.(to this day it still is.)

This time truth was the light. The light that would lead me to my unique journey and connect me back to my authentic self. If I wanted to be the most authentic version of myself, I had to stop lying to myself and to others.In the beginning of my journey, I was trying to be as accepting as possible with myself, because I didn’t want to scare myself away. Since, I was choosing to see the truth, I was trying to observe myself in every area of my life.

The first thing that got my attention was my eating habits. I was eating extremely big and unhealthy meals late nights.It was almost like I was hiding from my emotions with food.( a.k.a eating my emotions).

I decided to buy a scale. When the scale has arrived, I hopped on it with that fresh excitement of new purchase.When I saw the number on the scale, I wanted to scream. (It was almost the same feeling as taking a test and thinking you’ve done very well but you just found out that you have failed.). I didn’t believe it at first, I stepped down and back on it. I thought the scale was broken because this could’t be right! I stepped down again took all of my clothes and step back on it.

Nope, still the same weight. Now I had to fix both my honesty and my weight.

Being lost trying to decide what to do with my problems, I was walking at Barnes and Noble to find a cool reading, because I was done with the tv. While I was wondering around, this one book literally felt down from the shelve to my way. I looked at the book, and I was sold. This book was everything I needed at that time.( Still to this day , that book has always been an amazing guidance for me. I will make a blog post about the book soon.)

I started reading the book. It was giving me a lot of courage and self love I couldn’t find within me.This book clearly helped me to understand my blocks. With the help of this book, I was given a chance to look to life from a different perspective.

This new perspective was looking damn good on me. I was more positive towards myself. I wasn’t taking shit from anybody, literally no one.If somebody didn’t think I was cool enough they didn’t have to be around me. I was done living my life in that toxic circle with the people who didn’t think I was enough.

It was my time to decide If I was enough or not.

To be continued…


The Millennial Hippie